Welcome to Oz!

Know what that means? It means I don't want random people I don't know reading about my slow decent into madness. So, if you are already a friend, you don't have to post. (Unless you want to say hi and show everyone that reads this post that you are spiffy enough to be my friend.) IF you would like to be added to my friends, please post here. And keep in mind, I don't know your LJ name, so let me know who you are. Danke.

This was stolen from a friend's LJ. All I have to say is: Look at who originally posted this, then laugh your ass off the entire way through her "definition and identification". Seriously. Bring a box of tissues and strap on your seat belt, this shyte is too funny to come from this source.

http://marius-98.livejournal.com/138259.html

GAH! I just had to do YET ANOTHER factory reset on my piece of shyte cell phone! This time, I lost about 75% of my contacts. >.< Please text, email me

I am selling off my BPAL collection. All 5mL bottles are Limited Edition scents from 2006 and 2007, or from Inquisitions from 2008 and 2009. Most Imps are General Catalogue scents, with a few exceptions. Some are decants of Limited Edition scents, some are "frimps" that were never available for sale. All scents were cleanly tested once, or simply just sniff tested. All bottles are lab full. 5mL bottles are $30, LE decants and Frimps are $5, GC Imps are $3. Shipping is USPS Standard $5 in a bubble mailer. This list is going here and on my Facebook. Whatever is left after a week is going on Ebay and BPAL.org to be sold in lots. First come, first served. Please email me at inkygrrl@gmail. I accept Paypal.


5mL Bottles ($30):

Jacob's Ladder

Stardust

The Gaoler's Daughter

Agony (Heartache)

Playing With a Loaded Gun

Glitter

Fire Phoenix

Glasya

Sugar Skull

Rose Red

Samhainophobia

The Darkling Thrush

Ecstasy (True Love)

Haloa

Midnight Mass

Dr. John Steward

Samhain

Trick #1

Typhon


LE Decants and FrImps ($5):

Kanishta

The Oblation

Vasakasassa

Dolce Stil Nuovo

Abhisarika

Svadhinaopatika

Red Lantern

Chintamani-Dhupa

Night's Pavillion

Gennivre, L'Artiste du Diable

The Phantom Calliope

The Candy Butcher

Xanthe, The Weeping Clown

Pulcinella & Teresina

The Organ Grinder

Fruitcake

Violet Ray

Spare Change

Doodad

Knick-Knack

Bauble

Yuletide 2005


Imps ($3):

Mouse's Long Sad Tale

The Hamptons

Queen Mab

Ophelia

Xiiuhtecuhtli

Scarecrow

White Rabbit

Juke Joint

Windward Passage

Jezirat al Tennyn

Black Hellebore

Wicked

Pannychis (x2)

Delirium

Loup Garou

Love's Torment

Hermia

Versailles (x2)

Jack

#20 Love Oil (x2)

House of Night

Rome

La Belle Dame Sans Merci

Temple of Dreams

Madrid (x2)

Brimstone

The High Priest Not to be Described

Cairo

Antony

Yemaya

Ulalume

Queen of Hearts

Dee

Osun

Wolfsbane

Paris

Mad Hatter

Oneiroi

Florence

Black Tower (x2)

Namaste

Ode on Melancholy

A Countenance Forboding Evil

Yggdrasil

The Ghost

Black Cat

Depraved

Twilight

Death on a Pale Horse

Umbra

Red Devil

Czernobog

The Apothecary

Tzadikim Nistarim

Baneberry

Santa Muerte

Anathema

Urd

Delight

Intrigue

La Belle Au Bois Dormant

Jester

Hellcat

Nuit

Bliss

Catherine

Old Scratch

The Little Sparrow

Tushnamatay

Baghdad

Pele

Sri Lanka

Dance of Death

Shanghai

Nemesis

Dorian

Yup, I am moving...again! On Wednesday September 15th, 2010 I will be on a plane headed to the Left Coast, followed by my cats a couple days later.

I realized that I needed to work on myself for awhile. It’s time to stop living for others and really start doing what I want and need to do. Technically, I have been on my own for many, many years now. I am going to move to the other side of the country and spend all my spare time & energy working on myself; getting better physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Probably sounds kind of redundant but there is the truth of it.

I have things in my life that have to be made priority one: Getting back into school and getting this Psychology thing to work for me. Helping my family however I can. Getting in to see good Doctors and getting myself as well as I possibly can. And as always, indulging the Gypsy in me. I feel that I can best go about this by Stabbing Westward...err...moving Westward.

Many wonderful friends have offered up love and support throughout this turbulent time, and I love you all for doing so. Thank you!

I am moving on a “less than” shoestring budget and any and all help is appreciated. I am currently unable to work a normal 9-5 job due to my varied medical issues. For those of you who are unaware, I have sustained spinal injuries in a handful of car wrecks, have an advanced case of Fibromyalgia, suffer from severe insomnia, chronic migraines, and some other Mental/Neurological problems. I have applied for Social Security Disability, been “automatically” rejected, and am currently in the appeals process. My lawyer has told me that the appeals process can take upwards of four years and there is no guarantee that my application will then be approved...with a six thousand dollar price tag for his efforts. (I am so in the wrong field.) Both my parents are disabled and have been since I was a young child. Living on Social Security benefits themselves, they cannot offer me any financial assistance. I'm not asking anybody to just “PayPal” me money for no reason. No. I am offering barter or trade. I will happily teach workshops, classes, offer instruction, tutor, give performances, sell curiosities, and a host of other odd jobs. I have training, experience, knowledge or all three in BDSM, Fire Dancing, Teaching, Sewing, Painting, Sound Tech, Computers, Tarantulas, Tattoos, Piercings, Jewelry Making, Modeling, Writing, Bartending...Skills, I has them! I am unable to work an 8 hour shift, but multiple 1-2 hour shifts are absolutely possible.

I am cross-posting this to my Facebook & Live Journal. Please, feel free to link to it, comment on it, email me, message me, IM me, text me, send carrier pidgins, telepathically message me, or whatever else it takes.

When I board that plane, I will be leaving a piece of my soul behind. I never expected this to happen, but if I have any hope of getting to where I want...no NEED to be in life, then I have no other choice in the matter. Right now, I need my friends and loved ones by my side.

August 20th - 25th Chicago, Corey
September 24th - 31st Colorado, Orion's Wedding
October Open (4-6 Chicago Riotfest?)
November Open (Pennsylvania Con Randy?)
December Open (3 - 6 New York Matt?)
January - Memphis, ShadowCon
February 13th - 20th New Orleans, Annual Massacre Party
July 29 - August 12 Pennsic 40, Emily

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I am selling off half to three quarters of my BPAL collection. That should be about 70 imps and 20 5mls, give or take. Let me know if you would like a list before I list them on BPAL.org and Ebay. They are all FULL, cleanly tested ONCE. Some Imp labels are not pristine. If you care about labels, inquire.

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I have created a few new groups.
One for my dreams. I rarely remember my dreams upon waking, but when I do, I will post them here. Reply if you want to be added to this group.
Another group for stories I make up. I used to make up stories all the time. I used to write a lot. I always thought I would have published at least one of my novels by now. But they were on the harddrive of the computer I lost during Katrina. All the backups were lost as well. I don't write anymore, but I've been missing it. I want to start writing again, when the fancy strikes me, especially with so much down time lately. I can't promise to update frequently. Reply if you wanted to be added to this group.
I also created a group about sex. It's a place to muse about sex and my sex drive, explore new things, record fantasies, make lists of BDSM gear to buy, etc. This is a limited invitation only access to this group. My SOs, my best friend and sex therapist, my Mistress. I can't think of anyone else that needs access to this journal. Unless you think you can contribute intelligently to the entries. NSFW. Reply if you think you can be of use in this journal and I will consider adding you to this group.
I will also create a photo group once I get another Digital Camera or decide my 35mm is worth the hassle and money. Who knows when that one will even be created.

So, Jay started a "Hot or Not" account for me. I thought it was a goofy waste of time. And then, I looked at it as a social experiemnt. I got curious what these guys had to say. You see, Hot or Not has a dating site aspect to it. And I got curious what you say to someone? I've never been on a dating site before, and I'm not the type to walk up and say Hi to a stranger. And I got to thinking: You don't know this person. You have seen a picture of them, and read a little introductory bio. You think you might like to meet them. You have one shot to impress them. To stand out from the hundreds of other emails they recieve. You have to make not only a great first impression, you have to make them want to respond to your email and maybe set up a date. How do you do that? What do you say that is going to set you apart from the average person? Well, here are some of the messages I have recieved:

user:XXXXX
five days ago
u do know u can talk to me... i wont bite....

user:XXXXX
six days ago:
Hello!
six days ago:
How are you tonight Inky?
five days ago:
Good morning Inky
three days ago
Hello Inky. What pat of town are you in?

user: XXXXX
three days ago
how u doin?? 1974 model, one previous owner,low miles, full service history, five speed gear box and in need of a new owner. I'm a vintage so more suitable for being taken out on a weekend.....apply within. lol what do you think ? hope you at least had a laugh...

user: XXXXX
four days ago
Hi so do you have a bf or a husband?

user: XXXXX
five ays ago
like this 1 time at gorgeous ass princess camp
I um um um---thought i saw u there...where not only were u da camps president..but also a past client and ceo of camp gorgeous ass princess camp....or i think it was u...but upon further inspection?ha...im XXXXX by the way...tis an honor

user: XXXXX
five days ago
hi how are you?

user: XXXXX
five days ago
u chat?
three days ago
u like big dicks?

None of these guys had anything intelligent to say! Well, the guy hawking himself as a car was funny and inventive and gave the conversation a jumping off point. But none of these other goons did! I mean, come on! Use proper grammar, spelling and punctuation. Make me believe you passed second grade English! Ugh! I think every week or so, if I keep this up, I will post some of the messages I get. This is kinda fun! Feel free to snark away, I certainly did in my replies to these guys. And I responded to every one.

Okay Sterling. You have taken it too far this time. You lied to Shell and told her I said horrible things about her behind her back. Leave my friends out of this. This Drama that you have started has gone way too far. You hate me? You pissed off at me? Fine. Hate me. Be pissed off at me. I could care less. But leave my friends out of it. You have created a shitstorm of drama over us breaking up and it needs to end now. You really hurt Shell by lying to her like that. She is hurt that she thinks I would do that to her. You have way crossed a line with your lies. You have hurt someone I love and care deeply for. You have hurt one of mine. And you are such a selfriteous bitch that you try to hurt others by spreading lies. Your little game needs to end. Now. I'm not playing nice and simply ignoring you anymore. You horrendous cunt. You need to knock off the bullshit and the lies now. Who else have you lied to, huh? Who else have you spread your filthy lies with, huh? No one wants to play with the drama queen anymore. Drop the lies. Drop the drama. Just stop it and walk away. This is between you and me. Not you me and all my friends. Leave them out of this. No one wants to hear your dramatic lies anymore. So knock it the fuck off. And kindly go to hell.

Please DIAF.

Break ups are funny. The day you break up with someone, you are so upset, you spend time deleting the other person from your friends list. You stop following them on Twitter, you unfriend them on LJ and Mysace, you change your relationship status to "single" on all the pertinant sites. You go through your email account and delete out their emails, you box up gifts they gave you, vowing never to wear or use them again. You find things they have left in your apartment and you have to decide if you are going to throw the away or give them to a mutual friend to give back to the other person. You do the little break up dance, you get any trace of them removed from your life, then you pretend they don't exist. You dread functions that they are going to be at because you know they will be there and you simply don't want the drama. You know they are a drama queen and will more than likely start a scene in public over the breakup. Especially after the nasty blogs they posted to every website they could think of. You don't want the drama in your life, but they have thrust you into the drama spotlight, so to speak, and its up to you to be the adult and try to diffuse the situation. You dont want the bullshit to hit, but you know its going to, because they can't help but being a drama queen. Its pathetic and low and sad. And the person you once loved, you now pity. Funny how things change.

It's a not-so lazy day here. I didn't have to work, so I started doing housework. Emptyed and refilled the cat box, did the dishes, doing laundry now. And when I get home from laundry, I'm going to sweep the floors, lay down my living room rug, vacuum it, do a quick once-over to the bathroom, and empty the trash. Then I'm going to settle down in the middle of my clean living room and start painting some Christmas projects. Instead of moping about, I'm being productive. It feels good to be productive. It feels like I am accomplishing things. I like this feeling. My med mix is finally right, so I don't go through horrible bouts os depression anymore. I still have the occasional bout of the Oogies, but they are few and far between. And I am really enjoying living alone. It's nice. I can walk around naked all I want, I can do my little art projects at anytime of the day or night. I can go to bed whenever I feel like it. Me and the kitties are happy living alone. The boy have eachother to play with and I get to watch them race around and pounce on eachother. They are too precious. I love those kitties. I really can't complain about how things have turned out lately. Its all for the best.

Hope everyone out there in LJ Land are having great days as well. If you aren't, remember, This too shall pass. And hey, it's Friday! Weekend is almost here! Have a great day and an even better weekend LJ Land. Know your Inky loves and misses you greatly.

Okay. This has just gotten out of hand. Who took the breakup to Grynner's house to get him embroiled in the mess? Who brought it to the INTERWEBS? Who is trying to bring the rest of my friends into it by lying to them and telling them I talk shit about them? Who wrote a drama-laden tirade on LJ about how horrible of a person I am because she got hurt? And who is sitting quietly by and letting the drama just float on by? Who is not dragging other people into it? Who is not devolved to childish name calling in this? Who is not making you "take sides" like this is Junior High? Who is letting this end like a normal, rational adult and who is playing the part of the Drama Queen?

If any of you feel the need to "take sides" in this, know that I am not the one who forced you to. I was willing to let this end and not drag other people into this. I was not going to take this to the Interwbes. I have not started calling names. I was completely rational in this. Remember that.

For those that care, I am handling it well, better than some. I am around if anyone wants to know how it went down or how I am doing. Please fell free to call or respond here. Take care, my friends. I know you will all do the adult thing.

I ordered my copy of Palimpsest yesterday. The suspense, she is killing me.

What's that, you say? You haven't ordered yours yet? Well, hi you hence to http://www.amazon.com/Palimpsest-Catherynne-Valente/dp/0553385763/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1223260837&sr=1-1%27 and order your copy straight away!

I won't chince out and just post a meme after not posting for so long.

Life is good. My Siamese, Ramesses the Great, is growing like a weed. He's no longer the snowy white he was when I brought him home. He is turning into quite the wonderful little man.

Work is good. We went through a round of layoffs. I was spared, thank the ever loving good goddess. My overtime has been cut off, but at least I still have the job.

Truck is...running. Still giving me problems with the brakes.

I miss my friends like crazy. But I am going on the City New Orleans Train Journey with Sooj and crew. YAY!!

Love to all.

Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember. Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Next, re-post this in your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses.

Read somethingpositive.net and read todays blog. Randy mentions me! Squee!

I am still alive. Updating from my new G1. Miss you all.

So, I have been having problems wiht the brakes on the truck for, oh, like three years now. They just feel spongy and she doesn't stop with a quickness. I have had the Master Cylinder replaced once three years ago, but apparantly it went bad. /grrr $300 later, I have brakes. We are not amused.